Interests:Winter Sonata (Bae Yong Jun...you get the point), music, shopping, laughing, not studying, travelling (especially to Asia or Europe!), looking cute :P Expertise:Sleeping, Korean Dramas, piano, making people laugh, being an A-class PRISS*~ Occupation:Student
Stop letting pride get in the way of expressing my emotions.
Be happy and carefree.
I have to admit, the last year I set my resolutions I was not able to accomplish most of them. In fact, I admit that I did a pretty poor job of it. I let my emotions get the best of me and forgot what my long term goals needed to be all about. I am determined to not let that happen again this year.
What is there to reflect for 2009? Marriage hasn't been all fun and games for the most part. You can call me naive, but I had always thought that marriage was all about love and that love could conquer anything. Now that I'm older and wiser, I'd like to pass on some truth. Love isn't enough at all. In fact, patience and selflessness are more important ingredients to a good marriage. There are so many ups and downs in marriage. When your relationships is going great, you feel like the luckiest person in the world. When your relationship is at a low point, life feels bland and jaded. No matter what stage you're at though, the most important thing is not to lose yourself in the relationship. This year, my goal is to work hard to gain back my true self. I will be happy. I will be self sufficient. I won't ever put myself in any situation where I am at the loss. I will not be a victim. My destiny is in my hands and I will control it once more. When things are not fine, I will not let pride get in the way to express my true opinions. I will stop caring how others see me...no matter if people think I'm crazy, weird or stupid, I know whats true and I will not let others drive my decisions anymore.
I usually don't blog about movies that I watch but I feel the need to write about my feelings towards "Twilight: New Moon". I had low expectations about the movie before I even watched it but I figured I'd watch it anyway because I wanted to know what the fuss was all about. The whole story is so overly dramatic and lame (not to mention the sub-par acting in the movie). Okay, so Edward Cullen is attractive but there's a million guys out there that could have given Bella a better life. Personally if I were Bella, I would choose neither guys. I'd be with a regular human over a werewolf or vampire, why lead a tortured life if you could have a normal and happy one! But I guess if I had to pick one I would choose Jacob because at least he was willing to break all the rules in order to protect her from danger whereas Edward just disappeared from her life to avoid all of their problems. It is never true 'love' if he only wants to love from a distance! If he was man enough and cared, he would have overcome all challenges with her instead of walking away from his feelings. It also baffles me that Bella loves Edward to the point where she is so irrationally dependent on him and willing to turn herself into a vampire in order to suit his lifestyle. It is never going to be a healthy relationship if anyone has that sort of influence over you. I do find it intriguing that women are so crazy about Edward Cullen though. It goes to show that many people have unrealistic expectations on the 'perfect' relationship. There is no way Bella should be idolized at all since her personality is far too weak willed. She was willing to basically sell her soul in order to appease Edward's lack of confidence in the relationship which is totally unfair ...sacrifices should be made both ways!
I would have been so mad if I had just left the movie theater straight after watching this lame movie but thankfully, I caught the next showing of "The Blind Side". This was such an inspirational and Oscar-worthy story. It's based on the true life of Michael Oher who was a poor homeless African-American teenage boy that gets adopted by a rich white upper class family. He could barely read and write initially but through hard work and support, he overcame his traumatic past to become a successful NFL player. With the help of his new family and friends, he even ended up on Dean's List twice in college and graduated with a Criminal Justice degree despite having an IQ score of only 80. It's amazing how much one can overcome through a strong support system. Most of all, it's a story that teaches you to never give up despite all the odds against you. This is something I've come to appreciate over the past year and its so true...life is all about miracles. Just believe in yourself then good things will always come. I can't believe that this family was so selfless, kind and persistent too...it does sound like a very cliche storyline but the fact that this is all true makes it so moving. I teared up during several points and that didn't even happen when I watched Titanic! I definitely recommend all of you to watch this instead, do not fall into the Twilight trap! Save yourself the $12 movie ticket!
There are many things in my life to be happy about right now. All of the school applications have been submitted and we found a good family to rent our apartment starting next month so the financial load is off of our shoulders for the next 2 years. My parents came to visit a week ago so I had fun catching up with them. I'm also really excited that its already November cause that means Christmas is coming and I'm going to be heading to HK soon. We'll also be stopping by Seoul just in time to celebrate our 1 year anniversary together as husband and wife, its going to be amazing. I am sooo bringing Johnnie to the Winter Sonata film set at Chuncheon. I remember the last time I went, I was single and wished that I had someone to share the experience with...I'm glad this time I'll have Johnnie with me! Wow I can't believe I've been officially married for a year already, time really flies. The year is truly coming to a close...now its all up to God to show me what I can do next year! Must continue to work hard and aim high!
I'm so proud of myself. I've been keeping myself entirely focused on the goals ahead of me rather than wallowing in all the things I should have done in the past. Finally, I can look forward to improving my decisions in life rather than complaining about it. I've been living healthily, sleeping early and working out 3 times a week. I've been working hard at work, relentlessly trying to improve and absorb as much as I can through my current position as new things come along. I come home every night and put all of my free time on honing up my school applications. I guess keeping myself busy has actually helped me feel happier about myself. Sometimes when you fall to your lowest point, you just have to pick yourself back up and move forward. I guess this kind of positive energy was what has been missing in my life in the past couple of years.
Persistence. Persistence. Persistence. Must stay persistent in order to reach long-term goals in spite of all challenges that one may face. I can't thank Johnnie and my parents enough for sticking by and talking me through every time I experience a major hiccup in life. I have to rid myself of negative influences and train myself to be more emotionally confident.
